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I've been feeling suicidal and if I need remind you
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It's not becoming of my heart and my brain
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I was thinking about how great it would be
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If I could make the tightness in my chest go away
[Verse]
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It's been a while since I've seen God and I'm not trying to lead him on
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But he's always trying to fuck me to the tune of my favorite song
[Chorus]
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And they're playing the 59th sound in heaven
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While the angels were drinking up whiskey and cokes
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It's hard to freeze your anxieties
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When your best friends torching your coat, your coat
[Instrumental]
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[Verse]
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Drop that phone, drink a glass of water
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And call me when you get in your bed
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I've seen inside your head and I'm doing
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The surgery on the parts that still wish you were dead
[Bridge 1]
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'Cause I've lost too many friends so I'll say it again
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And again and again and again and again and again and again and again
[Bridge 2]
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I'm not trying to say it's easy but I'm trying to say it's fine
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I've still got your demons and they're not gonna be leaving any time
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Any time soon
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Any time soon
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Any time soon
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Any time soon
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I'm not trying to say it's easy but I'm trying to say it's fine
[Outro]
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Since I was thirteen I had depression and I had a difficult time
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comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived
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a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing
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everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence,
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I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't
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worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it
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came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as
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myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs
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lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be
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and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's
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so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand
