xAm G C
I keep tellin myself that its not in my hands
(this seems outa my hand man)
Dm
For losing you so....???
(this wasnt supposed to happen like this)
Am G C
I look to the sky sometimes, just open your lips
(i dont think shes coming back this time)
Dm
open your lips (not this time)
C G
Cuz every time I pick up a pen its all you
Dm Am
and there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us two
C G
pages turn so fast like all those pages do
Dm
your words that bleed through
Am G
Get back in my arms and just hang in by my side
C Dm
losing all of you has left me dry
Am G
tell me where you run to and where do you hide
C Dm
know youve never once left my mind
tell yourself im sorry for these things that ive done
oh tell yourself never seen that love that gone no
tell yourself its over now and not to run
just tell yourself im sorry for what ive done
Cuz every time I pick up a pen its all you
and there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us two
pages turn so fast like all those pages do
your words that bleed through
Listen while Im talking , I dont do it too much
get a feeling that came between us
whatever happened to the way that it was
One thing I cant have is what I want
So excited its gonna end up this way
so excited that you would not stay
you wont be here by the end of my day
cuz i cant even listen to words that i say
but every time I pick up a pen its still you
and there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us two
pages turn so fast like all those pages do
your words that bleed through
I swear you never really miss it till its half gone
then you tighten up your grip tryin to hold on
didnt really appreciate it when its in your arms
then you can relate to every word in your song
like was i wrong but i know im right
but in hindsight, I blame the limelight
maybe i just needed time to get my mind right
maybe we'll reconnect when the times right
Im trying to think about the causes
was i too bossy exactly where the fault is??
I was told to step in love with some caution
cuz love and shit is no difference in the darkness
but love is where the heart is
you can see the blood as its drippin through the gausses
So i guess I fell outa love with a smile and more love with applauses
And its quiet in my house
your silence is my home
and everything reminds me
that I am all alone
Its quiet where you used to be
and now that youre gone, theres not a sound ,theres not a word but a dark tone
well its quiet when im drinking
its quiet when i smoke
its___ when im eating, always I sleep all alone
its quiet now but louder than i sit still like a stone???
only from my dreams where you wont go
every time I pick a pen its all you
and there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us two
pages turn so fast like all those pages do
your words that bleed through
dont pick up that pen, no i, all i say
dont look in the mirror, at all i am
the pages turn, the pages burn
and its all cuz of you
(it was tears that were soaking these pages,
words that left me bleedin and pleadin??)
How did i get in this perdigement???
was I influenced by the benefits
cuz i was hittin on so many chicks
lovin you and leavin you was the only cinnamon
but i guess i wasnt ready for ya
cuz im rubbin your feet ,cookin spaghetti for ya
takin you to parks winnin teddys for ya
but in my heart im thinkin theres someone better for ya
but my hearts like 'no not this again'
cut it out black, you know how this will end
and i swear i really was listenin
but my dick was yellin and my heart was just whisperin
so you know who i listen to
that my hearts bitchin cuz hes miss you
got my eyes starin at some old flicks of you
when my nose swears that it can still smell the scent of you
and my soul cant dance who was meant for you???
losing myself now
ive been wondering, watching
ive been waiting so long
ive been talking, ive been listening
ive been playin my song
ive been hoping you'd would be leaving
honestly you're not
im not with you,
but i miss you...
